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Date: 2019-12-12 04:19 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] therushingsky
"What?" Rhys actually laughs, releases Elijah long enough to write his eyes, "No-- I'm crying because one of my best friends stabbed me in the arm, you dummy. I just-- you don't usually volunteer stuff like that and I wanted to check if something was wrong."

He's balancing a few plates here.

Date: 2019-12-12 04:28 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] therushingsky
Rhys nods, expression fully attentive. He doesn't look worried. It's the expression he wears whenever they're working on something together. Waiting to have enough information to make something work.

"Go on?"
Edited Date: 2019-12-12 04:29 pm (UTC)

Date: 2019-12-12 04:38 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] therushingsky
"Oh. Yeah. He is-- pretty much as different to you as anyone could be."

Rhys's face does fall a little bit, as this is where the conversation goes, but he starts focused.

"Is that-- I take it it's been bothering you?"

Date: 2019-12-12 04:47 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] therushingsky
"Yeah, well-- you could say that I shouldn't want those things in the first place, it doesn't make the feeling go away."

Rhys points out, gently.

"Do you know why it's bothering you, or is it just a weird feeling?"

Date: 2019-12-12 05:08 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] therushingsky
"Elijah." Rhys says flatly, "You're a total babe for saying it, but no one in their right mind would look at this situation and come away from it feeling like my motivations are normal and healthy, or that your reaction to this is weird."

"And-- what kind of shortcomings do you mean?"

Date: 2019-12-12 05:36 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] therushingsky
Rhys nods, choosing his words carefully,

"Some of it was just-- rhythm. He has this kind of, push and pull energy. He's making jokes, then he's trying to provoke you, then he's upset, then he's hitting on you, then he's making jokes again. It felt very--"

Rhys pauses, trying to think of how to put this,

"I don't know. I responded to it. It was fun. And kind of hot? Like, I thought I could imagine what it'd be like to go to bed with him. I knew it'd be-- weird. And maybe kind of uncomfortable, and maybe too much. And if I came early, or said something stupid, or-- I don't know, fucked it up, it just wouldn't matter because it would be so weird anyway. And he'd just have a good time either way."

Those were probably the initial reasons. They've multiplied though. Grown in the warm dark damp between too bodies. Rhys scratches his neck, watching Elijah's expression.

"I'm not sure-- how much you want to know. Is it helping?"
Edited Date: 2019-12-12 05:37 pm (UTC)

Date: 2019-12-12 05:55 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] therushingsky
Rhys smiles, and reaches out to caress Elijah's shoulder.

"I have been trying to look cool in front of you since the day we met, dude. I know you're-- I know it's fine, but I don't know if I can turn that off."

Date: 2019-12-12 06:26 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] therushingsky
"Yeah, well I know that now. But I wanted-- I don't know. You probably never felt like this with anyone - but I was so impressed by you, I always wanted--"

He trails off a little, then laughs.

"I wanted you to really want me back, and not just go along with me because we were trapped in space together and I was super available."

He's not worried that this is the reason they're together now, but he's pretty sure that is the reason they were together at first.

Date: 2019-12-12 07:09 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] therushingsky
"I don't know exactly when it changed."

He offers, thoughtfully.

"I guess after you blew out Quentin's eye, when it was really obvious you weren't okay, I figured-- you must have liked me a bit, or you definitely would have ditched me for real."

But would he? Rhys was the one with the keys to the cybernetics lab. He always tried to express that access to it wasn't dependent on their personal relationship, but--

Ugh. Warden / inmate relationships. Good and confusing.

Date: 2019-12-12 07:19 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] therushingsky
"Well, I knew you liked me..." Rhys says, wheeling back a little, the sudden, creeping feeling on the back of his neck, "I mean, we were working together, we got on well--"

But he's never been able to read Elijah, and the other man isn't much of an oversharer.

Date: 2019-12-12 07:44 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] therushingsky
Rhys opens his mouth, like he wants to protest, but--

It's hard to protest.

"I didn't think it in a bad way. I just-- I mean, I came on super strong, and you... you just sort of let me."

Date: 2019-12-12 07:58 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] therushingsky
"It's okay. It wasn't-- I mean, I was okay with it. I didn't mind liking you more than you liked me."

And he got used to the idea that he was never going to get Elijah to feel the way he did, and that was okay too.

"I guess that's kind of it. I knew if you were free you wouldn't have chosen to have this kind of relationship, and you probably wouldn't have chosen to have it with me."
Edited Date: 2019-12-12 07:59 pm (UTC)

Date: 2019-12-12 10:19 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] therushingsky
"Sorry." Rhys offers, a little uncomfortable, "I didn't mean to assume anything, but-- I mean, I also--"

He pauses, then presses ahead. He hasn't just been living in a weird insecure delusion here,

"I don't... I mean, it's not like anything changed. It's not like you gave me a sign or you ever said anything about it. Even when I asked you if we were boyfriends, you kinda framed it as being something I wanted, and that you didn't mind going along with."

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